A few weeks ago I watched a Bollywood movie titled Swades, and it made me think. It is the story of a young Indian, Mohan, working as a project manager in NASA.
On a trip back home to India to reunite with his beloved nanny, Mohan came to a rude awakening about the plight of the people. During his short stay, he challenged age old traditions, fell in love with a long lost friend and mobilized an entire village to create their own source of electricity.
However, the time came for Mohan to return to the USA and a battle raged. To leave or to stay?
If he stayed he would leave behind the privileges of life in America. If he left he would leave behind a budding love and the chance to make a big difference in a small place.
I haven’t faced such dilemmas and I am fortunate to have the one I love close to me, but I realize that, just like Mohan, I face a daily battle much like his own. The battle all too familiar. To be or not to be?
To be requires that I leave my comfort zone and risk losing something. It requires that I task myself beyond my normal limits; that I make certain choices even when I would rather not. It requires that I take the path less trodden and make a big difference in a small place.
But not to be? That’s easy.
All I have to do is go with the flow. I don’t have to bother my pretty head about the grander issues of life. I don’t have to wonder if I’m being true to myself, my dreams and abilities or not. I can just wave off those things that tug at my heartstrings, take a chill pill and just trudge along with everyone else.
Then all I’d be doing is making a barely noticeable difference in an overwhelmingly populated space.
The choice is always mine.
As 2015 starts I’m taking stock and making plans. I want to own my space and make the difference I was born to make. The road may not be easy and I may have to burn the midnight oil.
But that’s okay. Anything other than that is to be ordinary, mediocre, just … bleh.
I encourage you to take stock too. And make that choice.
To be or not to be?
Happy New Year people!